Only God Knows Best

What a weekend, and past several days it has been. I have so many questions for God, and he has his own reasons! He does things intentionally for my best interest. I love that about my God, but it hurts sometimes. What a strong person I have become through all trials handed to me.

Letting go of certain friends here lately is hard, and I have come to accept that is a part of a season and change. Knowing God and how he made me I will make new ones, but letting go is hard. I know some have better things to do, and sometimes I feel that we were never good enough? Who cares if you are ever good enough. I think God never cares if we are good enough! He never cares what we WEAR, LOOK LIKE, DRESS LIKE, WHAT CARS WE DRIVE, AND WHO OUR SOCIAL LIFE IS. It seems that is how a lot of people are now days, and it drives me up the wall. I love people, and I do not care that you drive a beat up truck or live on a farm in the middle of no where.

I know my God doesn't care who we are and how we dress, I know he loves me unconditionally and no matter what happens in life he is there. Listening to KRLC this morning the most reassuring song came on, and it is moments like that I know God is listening to me.

This past weekend I had the pleasure to be in a group called, LEOW of NWA (Law enforcement officer wives of Northwest Arkansas). It was nice getting to meet other women who's husbands are officers from other agency's and listening to how they operate. Not only that but a fun time of talking with other people who truly understand your home life! Who understand that sometimes it is hard on a officers income. Wow, these families are out there! From this group I hope it encourages more women to join.

My bother Ryan and I sing this song! Always love singing it with him!!!"My Name Is Lazarus" By Greater Vision

One of my favorite Gospel Group! I Cast My Bread Upon The Water - Gold City

Linking Up!-Peasant Dress

I love linking up with this website!

I made a peasant dress. I used 1/2 yard and 8X15 for the sleeves. I got all my fabric at Hobby Lobby.

The dress in the picture is not completed it will be in the morning!

I love it! Wonderful for Arkansas Razorback Games!!!!

Things I Do Not Understand

Where do I begin, I have not been on here in a while! Here lately I have found myself overwhelmed with life. Mainly because Josh had ACL surgery, and taking care of him.

I had my recent check up with my cancer doctor, and all white blood count was high! I am very thankful to my Lord for being so greatful and taking care of me! Janurary it will be my 2 year anniversary for no cancer! AMAZING HUH?!!

Next, my mind wonders why are people rude individuals and treat you with disrespect. When you have done nothing but treat them nicely?

Then again God shows me different routes to take with certain friendships in life. I just do not understand that issue at times, but God know best!

Losing and Remembering Sadie LeRae

Wow how the time has passed since you were born! You were born August 9, 2009! You and Jaxsun would be exactly 11 months apart! Your due date was Christmas! What amazing due date!?! We choose to place you in area where I would see you quite often! I loved how it is right by the main rode's, and I often think your watching the crazy traffic and people. I try to have a fun sense of humor at time when dealing with you being gone! At times I grieve more than other days, but I know God had a wonderful plan! He gave me to your daddy and I for almost thirty weeks in my womb. Then God wanted you back!
The night before your father and I were laying in bed watching you kick like crazy! Then the next morning around 500am you wanted to make an appearance. It was scary I will be honest. Your dad called 911, and they were on their way! I lay in the floor like the dispatcher said to do, and within a minute or two their were the firemen. Their were eight of them! They were so sweet, and they seemed scared just like me. That day was a blur. I remember them loading me in the ambulance sirens going crazy.
Then an older firefighter who look like he could be my dad; held my hand and looked at me. I knew he did not want to say a word, but all he said was "I'm so sorry".

I'm so sorry, I knew what that meant. Sadie, our third daughter was gone. The Lord took her from this earth and now is with him.

One thing that keeps me at peace, is knowing that she is with Jesus, and no more hurting. A week before hand on the ultrasound she had holes in heart. Also, they thought she would Autism or Down Syndrome. Which would be perfectly fine with me! I know it would be very difficult to see her in the hospital, etc. God had a plan for all of this!

Now she is singing and rejoicing with the angels and having a grand time!

Happy Birthday Sweet Girl! You would be three years old!

First Day of School-Kindergarten 2012-2013-Mrs. Ruffner

• Sophia Marie
• Kindergarten
• Mrs. Ruffner
• Elm Tree Elementary
• Principal-Mandie Thompson
• Age 5
• Only know one other child in her room, Abby who went to Noah's Ark with her at First Baptist. 
• I think you are going to make many, many friends like your mom. You never meet a stranger, you love people just like me!
• A lot of your friends got another teacher and I hope you see them at recess!
• Yes I spelled Kindergarten wrong! Whoops! Just another a memory! 
• As I look at her going to Kindergarten I remember my K teacher Mrs. Stein! She was a sweetheart! I loved them all, and hope she will too!

Wake Up!

First day of School Outfit

Waiting for school to start!

 

Waiting!

 Have fun sweet girl! Make lots of memories!